Come here, my boy.
Gurudas : Rabindra Svarup was a sensitive, thoughtful, poetic, and ascetic-looking person who obviously loved Prabhupada. He didn't speak too much, but sometimes said things honestly and abruptly. He said what he thought. Prabhupada loved him very much.
In the middle of a kirtan, Rabindra Svarup said, "I've got to reach God directly. I cannot do it through anybody else" and he started to cry. This was his conflict. He didn't want to do it with any priest, or intermediary. He loved Prabhupada, but he said, "I've got to do it on my own." Prabhupada said, "Come here, my boy." Rabindra Svarup came right up on the vyasasana and put his head on Prabhupada's lap. Prabhupada said, "Dear boy, I just want you to be happy. I just want you to be happy." Rabindra Svarup looked into Prabhupada's face and cried. Prabhupada looked at him very compassionately. Then Rabindra Svarup bolted up off the vyasasana and out the front door. He didn't sneak out in the middle of the night. We were all there. We saw him run out, and we were all shaken by it because we were a family. His girlfriend Haladapi was there and she didn't know whether she would ever see him again. He just left, slamming the door behind him. Prabhupada said, "Now let us chant," and he led with sizzling kartals. Prabhupada didn't say anything about the incident. We all chanted and cried.
Reference: Memories Anecdotes of a Modern Day Saint - Volume 1
Author: Siddhanta Dasa