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I will come to you in your dreams

Pita : Although it was devastating when you first saw Prabhupada's deteriorated physical condition, after you were with him for a while you got used to it. When devotees saw him in that condition for the first time they'd cry and we'd all start crying seeing these devotees crying. At one point Prabhupada said, "Why are you all crying?" We said, "Srila Prabhupada, we're crying because you're so sick and we are afraid that you may leave." Prabhupada said, "I will never leave you. I live forever in my books so there's no reason to cry. Old people die, that is natural. When a young person dies there's some mistake because a young person should live until he's old. When he's old he should die. For me it's a natural thing, so don't cry." One devotee said, "But Srila Prabhupada, we are crying because we can't be without you and when you leave, we won't know how to communicate with you." Prabhupada said, "I will communicate with you through your heart. I will come to you in your dreams. I will communicate with you through dreams as caitya-guru." I found that controversial because I thought my God-brothers wouldn't have approved, but Prabhupada said it, that he would communicate with us through dreams. At times Prabhupada would say, "You all have very good mothers. Yes, all you boys have very good mothers." We said, "But our mothers, are meat-eaters." Prabhupada said, "The qualities of the son come from the mother. You are all good devotees, so I know you have good mothers." Prabhupada complimented us. Prabhupada also said, "My Guru Maharaj left his body out of disgust, his disciples had not followed his order. But I'm not disgusted with you. I'm very satisfied and pleased with my disciples. Never think that I'm not happy with you. And I'm happy to have your association. You are good association." Because Prabhupada trained us in Krishna consciousness he saw us as good association.


Reference: Memories Anecdotes of a Modern Day Saint - Volume 3 by Siddhanta Dasa