We are not fanatics

Aditi dasi: So I'd been in the temple already a year-and-a-half, and Prabhupada was coming. So I remember that Malati, Jyotir-mayi, Mandakini and myself, we stayed back, everybody else went to the airport. And I was feeling really, really bad because all the other devotees that had already met Prabhupada were on another platform and they were so excited. And Mandakini, we had to do everything. It pushed me to the point where I was kind of feeling negative, so I was feeling really bad about myself. So Prabhupada came through the door into Bury Place and Malati was first in line, then Jyotir-mayi I think, then Mandakini, and there was the temple door and I hung back to the back. So Prabhupada walked in with a big smile on his face and he gave a garland to Malati, he gave a garland to Jyotir-mayi, he gave a garland to Mandakini and then he turned to go into the temple room. So I thought, "Well, this is right because I'm such a nonsense. I don't deserve anything from Prabhupada."

But I remember when he went into the temple room, it was late in the evening, Prabhupada offered his obeisances very deliberate and very slow and just very transcendental. Then he stood up and he just held his hands and just looked to the Deities so nicely. Then he went upstairs, and then all the devotees got back from the airport and we were all in a big room. It was either Ekadasi or it was going past midnight and it was going to become Ekadasi. So Prabhupada was giving out sweets and he gave them to each devotee, and I stood way in the back because I was feeling so bad. He kind of forced me to come. I didn't feel right coming up, but he forced me with his hand and put it in my hand like that, he smiled and dropped it in my hand. Then there was some talk about, "Oh, it's Ekadasi, and there is cornstarch in the icing sugar that goes into Simply Wonderfuls." And Prabhupada, he said something like, "We are not fanatics," and everybody took their Simply Wonderfuls.