Spiritual Master In My Heart
Gokularanajana Dasa: When Balavanta became a GBC in 1976, I became the temple president in Atlanta. I had been used to having the guidance of an older God brother and I felt alone. I felt that I had risen to my level of incompetence. I thought, why is everybody going to stay because of me? I was meditating in that way over and over again for a couple of months, and I was getting up the nerve to tell Srila Prabhupada. Srila Prabhupada, I'm honored by the opportunity to serve as the temple president, but you should think about someone else. I'm not competent or ready." Before the Ratha-yatra in New York I went into Prabhupada's room, paid my obeisances, looked up and Srila Prabhupada was engaged in conversation. All I knew was that I wanted to tell Prabhupada how alone I felt. Prabhupada looked right at me and with such compassion said, "One thing is, even though I was in a foreign country and I didn't know anyone, I never felt alone." I thought, how did he know?" He said, "As long as I was following my spiritual master's instructions, I knew he was in my heart." I didn't have anything to say. I was going to be temple president for a while.
Reference: Memories Anecdotes of a Modern Day Saint - Volume 3 by Siddhanta Dasa
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