It's transcendental loving service

Satsvarupa Dasa: Swamiji, I'm in my room thinking of you and what you are giving us. As I told my brother-in-law, It's transcendental loving service. It's raining today and tomorrow I get initiated. It will be fun. I've got my red japa beads. You are my guru. I feel serious about this initiation into Hinduism. Now it's later the next day and you've given me a spiritual name. My true name is Satsvarupa dasa. From now on, I'm no longer Steve Guarino. When I say "I believe in God and God is Krishna and He is present in the japa beads is this my imagination? Is it my belief? Is it fact? What is the proof?" Anyway, as long as I can see you, my doubts will be defeated. I've never met anyone like you: You are close to us as a friend and father and yet you are with Krishna in a trance of devotion. You make strong arguments against all doubts. What's ahead? I don't know. Let me read your books. From now on I'm no longer Steve Guarino. Let me write it, Satsvarupa dasa, and more visions of you: In your turtleneck jersey, your shining eyes, working at your Gita and Bhagavatam, your spiritual body, your life in India, the mystery of Radha and Krishna. Now autumn is coming and it is a brilliant hope. You say we will go out chanting in Tompkins Square Park, you say we will go everywhere, even Russia and China. I too may have to go somewhere. I want to be serious and get up very early and fight sleep and sex desire. And work for you. It is a brilliant hope that Krishna is the Supreme Godhead and we can play with Him in Vrindavana. If my father and mother don't like it, they can reject me, so what? As Rayarama said, It's the oldest story in the world, that kids grow up and go their way. Swamiji, you know all this and you know Krishna. Please accept me. I'll write more soon if you are pleased with this.