baro-kripa kaile krishna adhamer prati
ki lagiyanile hetha koro ebe gati
My dear Lord Krishna, You are so kind upon this useless soul, but I do not know why You have brought me here. Now You can do whatever You like with me.
ache kichu karja taba ei anumane
nahe keno aniben ei ugra-sthane
But I guess You have some business here, otherwise why would You bring me to this terrible place?
rajas tamo gune era sabai acchanna
basudeb-katha ruci nahe se prasanna
Most of the population here is covered by the material modes of ignorance and passion. Absorbed in material life, they think themselves very happy and satisfied, and therefore they have no taste for the transcendental message of Vasudeva. I do not know how they will be able to understand it.
tabe jadi taba kripa hoy ahaituki
sakal-i sambhava hoy tumi se kautuki
But I know Your causeless mercy can make everything possible because You are the most expert mystic.
ki bhave bujhale tara bujhe sei rasa
eta kripa koro prabhu kori nija-basa
How will they understand the mellows of devotional service? O Lord, I am simply praying for Your mercy so that I will be able to convince them about Your message.
tomara icchaya saba hoy maya-basa
tomara icchaya nasa mayar parasa
All living entities have become under the control of the illusory energy by Your will, and therefore, if You like, by Your will they can also be released from the clutches of illusion.
taba iccha hoy jadi tadera uddhar
bujhibe niscai tabe katha se tomar
I wish that You may deliver them. Therefore if You so desire their deliverance, then only will they be able to understand Your message.
bhagavater katha se taba avatar
dhira haiya sune jadi kane bar bar
The words of Srimad-Bhagavatam are Your incarnation, and if a sober person repeatedly receives it with submissive aural reception, then he will be able to understand Your message.
(9, 10, 11, 12 & 13)
It is said in the Srimad-Bhagavatam (1.2.17-21):
srnvatam sva-kathah krishnah
hridy antah-stho hy abhadrani
vidhunoti suhrit satam
bhaktir bhavati naishthiki
kama-lobhadayas ca ye
ceta etair anaviddham
sthitam sattve prasidati
kshiyante casya karmani
"Sri Krishna, the Personality of Godhead, who is the Paramatma [Supersoul] in everyone's heart and the benefactor of the truthful devotee, cleanses desire for material enjoyment from the heart of the devotee who has developed the urge to hear His messages, which are in themselves virtuous when properly heard and chanted. By regular attendance in classes on the Bhagavatam and by rendering of service to the pure devotee, all that is troublesome to the heart is almost completely destroyed, and loving service unto the Personality of Godhead, who is praised with transcendental songs, is established as an irrevocable fact. As soon as irrevocable loving service is established in the heart, the effects of nature's modes of passion and ignorance, such as lust, desire and hankering, disappear from the heart. Then the devotee is established in goodness, and he becomes completely happy. Thus established in the mode of unalloyed goodness, the man whose mind has been enlivened by contact with devotional service to the Lord gains positive scientific knowledge of the Personality of Godhead in the stage of liberation from all material association. Thus the knot in the heart is pierced, and all misgivings are cut to pieces. The chain of fruitive actions is terminated when one sees the self as master."
rajas tamo hate tabe paibe nistar
hridayer abhadra sate ghucibe tahar
He will become liberated from the influence of the modes of ignorance and passion and thus all inauspicious things accumulated in the core of the heart will disappear.
ki ko're bujhabo katha baro sei cahi
khudra ami dina hina kono sakti nahi
How will I make them understand this message of Krishna consciousness? I am very unfortunate, unqualified and the most fallen. Therefore I am seeking Your benediction so that I can convince them, for I am powerless to do so on my own.
athaca enecho prabhu katha bolibare
je tomar iccha prabhu koro ei bare
Somehow or other, O Lord, You have brought me here to speak about You. Now, my Lord, it is up to You to make me a success or failure as You like.
akhila jagat-guru! bacana se amar
alankrita koribar khamata tomar
O spiritual master of all the worlds! I can simply repeat Your message, so if You like You can make my power of speaking suitable for their understanding.
taba kripa ha'le mor katha suddha habe
suniya sabara soka duhkha je ghucibe
Only by Your causeless mercy will my words become pure. I am sure that when this transcendental message penetrates their hearts they will certainly feel engladdened and thus become liberated from all unhappy conditions of life.
aniyacho jadi prabhu amare nacate
nacao nacao prabhu nacao se-mate
kashthera puttali jatha nacao se-mate
O Lord, I am just like a puppet in Your hands. So if You have brought me here to dance, then make me dance, make me dance, O Lord, make me dance as You like.
bhakti nai beda nai name khub daro
"bhaktivedanta" nam ebe sarthak kor
I have no devotion, nor do I have any knowledge, but I have strong faith in the holy name of Krishna. I have been designated as Bhaktivedanta, and now, if You like, You can fulfill the real purport of Bhaktivedanta.
Reference: Excerpts from The Jaladuta Diary, 1965 - Journey to the U.S.A.