Why are you crying? Sit up.

Sudama: At that time Prabhupada told me that he saw Krishna as a cowherd boy. I didn't know anything about cowherd boys. I just knew Prabhupada. He was my life. If he said so, okay. He talked about how beautiful the grass was and how fortunate he was to have the mercy of his Guru Maharaj. That same week Purushotam, Himavati, Hamsaduta, Tamal, Dayananda, his wife Nandarani, and I entered Srila Prabhupada's room. Again this is in the afternoon. Srila Prabhupada was sitting at his desk chanting while tears flowed down his face. We were not aware of this because we were just aware of ourselves. We paid our obeisances and sat up. There was Srila Prabhupada, crying. Hamsaduta said, "All glories to you, Swamiji," and we all started crying. By the pure devotee's mystic power, neophytes were allowed to experience this. We had no idea why we were crying. We just felt an overwhelming mercy. We fell down again and paid obeisances. Srila Prabhupada said, "Why are you crying? Sit up." We said, "Srila Prabhupada, we are crying because you are so merciful." "No, no," he said. "It's my Guru Maharaj. Without his mercy, I'd be nothing." These were my first lessons in accepting a pure devotee of the Lord.