Desire for prestige lingers

One time Prabhupada and I visited Lalitprasad, Bhaktisiddhanta’s brother, who looked exactly like their father, Bhaktivinode Thakur. In his house I saw some of the hand written books written by Bhaktivinode Thakur. At that time Prabhupada was living in Bhaktivinode Thakur’s birthplace in Birnagar. Prabhupada said, “We will take care of you. We will develop this place. It will be an international center.” Lalitprasad said, “Yes, but I must be guru. You must step down and I must be acharya.” Prabhupada said, “Okay”, and we left. Prabhupada then looked at me and said, “I didn’t believe it, that even after giving up lust, desire for prestige lingers on even to the end.” When I asked him, “What broke up the Gaudiya Math?” Prabhupada said, “They were always worried who was going to give initiation. They couldn’t wait a few years until a guru manifested?” He said, “My God-brothers were fighting over material properties and money.”