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I don't understand it now maybe in future I'll understand it

Rasajna dasi : In Los Angeles, Srila Prabhupada had told us that we should come to the Mayapur festival to perform five Krishna-lila and five Caitanya-lila. And we were to collect as much as we could individually to pay for the trip, and whatever we couldn't collect he would pay from his trust. So we rehearsed every day. Then we got to Mayapur. We performed I don't remember how many performances, maybe three, and there was some complaint from the sannyasis of having women performing. I think Satarupa was playing Krishna. So there was a little bit of upset, and the performances were stopped. We didn't know quite what to make of that. It was a very difficult period because we thought, "Why doesn't Prabhupada just tell them that we're doing it anyway?" Most of us just accepted it, but there was one of the members that had a really hard time accepting that and ended up leaving. One thing that I had learned up to that point, that sometimes Srila Prabhupada would make a decision that I couldn't understand, and I learned that the best thing to do is to think, "Well, I don't understand it now, but maybe in the future I'll understand it." So just to be able to understand the fact that I don't know everything. With my rebellious nature it was tough, but I did it.


Reference: Following Srila Prabhupada – Remembrances by Yadubara dasa